The Gate

Clown #13:

I'm running out of words. I m sorry
Got close to paper's end.
I guess it’s time to tell my story
Along with the letter I will never send...

My story? Oh, I’ve got things on my chest
My life’s a mess sometimes, my lane is fast
Sometimes it feels I’ll lose and come to finish last
While sometimes I know I AM THE BEST...

At first it was “A talent is too expensive”
Little did I know that rotten thoughts are too extensive
Searching for peace of mind I lost my sanity
I gained my 13 clowns and my “Insanity”

It felt like I hadn’t slept for years
I couldn’t smile; all I did was shed them tears
At night I was having visions of my fears
The biggest fear was dying with no one near...

After insomnia and fears I fell asleep.
My sleep was deadly, it was deep.
Then I felt I couldn’t wake myself
Forgetting that I had to save myself

“The only one to clean your room is YOU”
“No one can live YOUR live but YOU”
I didn’t know this then so I chose to hide away
And wear the same mask every day...

The mask was getting heavy
Just like a cargo on my neck;
I was tired of people’s envy
And so called “love” that stabbed my back.

Then it was “I’m THE WINNER”
No matter if I was righteous or a sinner
I stopped hitting them breaks
I had to do whatever it takes...

Then it was “I am fine”
And then “You’re mine, and I am thine”
They say a man in love is always blind
I knew I was a fool but I didn’t mind...

Then it was “I get out!”
I ran away forgetting that the earth is round
Not knowing that by chains I had been bound
The squeak of shackles was an awful sound...

Then it was “Rebel, rebel, rebel, rebel”
Because I knew, the silence was my hell
I burned the mask, I rang them bells
Rebelling against the lies they tell...

I was an iceberg, yes I was
I hate the windows, love the doors
I said “I’ll never sneak through open gates”
So I broke them locks and flew away...

So how do I define my freedom?
It’s not a tree, it’s not the kingdom
My freedom is in me, I am the KING
My words do sting, they are my wings.

The locks; the gates
The wings; the king
I’ll fly; I’ll fall
I’ll cry; I’ll sing

I am a freedom, I’m a riot
I am the power, fuck the verbal diet
I am a rebel, I’m a renegade
And now I’m free, so close them gates...

[cyb]
30.08.2008
18:10

Colors

Colors

[Dedicated to my Colors]

My Colors:
Black
Grey
Pink
Grey
Drop of color
Orange
Hurricane

Whole my life is a circus and I'm just a comedian
I live in a fast lane baby cause I can't stand median;
My friends did walk me to the promised land through ups and downs
I was alone in my pain and now I'm 13 clowns!

They call me crazy cause my weapon is my Spoken Word
And I never ever do what I'm being told.
Judge me like a book, forget them lies that you've heard
Cause I'm just a lone soldier in this stone cold world.

I have made it alive, in the darkest night
I have survived the war, and all the furious fights
I've been hungry for LIFE but all I did was starve
Now it's time to C-Y-B, because enough is enough!

From black to grey, From pink to blue
And sometimes sadness sticks to you just like a glue
Then it was grey again and I committed suicide
But then the drop of color put all of my worries aside

I've been through 7 transformations (what a magical number)
And seven colors of life still couldn't feed my hunger
U were a little star, I was a pitch black hole.
And if I call you the Sun, Then maybe I'm the rainbow...

...Aftermath...

[cyb]

27.03.2008
19:40
18.06.2008
21:33

Hurricane

Hurricane

[Current mood: Eric Bennet - Hurricane.mp3]

They say a Hurricane's what brings you back
But I've been deceased, my soul was black
And if the wind of change is what I need
Then bring me the storm, cause my heart bleeds!

They say that hurricane's the way to wash away the pain
But then what's pain if life is just a silly game
The game is really simple, rules are plain:
The heads or tales, no one to blame...

They say it's time to turn another page
It's a one man circus I'm alone on stage
Me and my girlfriend "solitude", we are engaged
I feel no pain, just emptiness and rage...

Sometimes it feels oblivion's my fate
And all I get is pain no matter if I love of hate
No matter how fast I run it seems I'm always late
I wonder why do I always have to wait...

They say that all I need is one big Hurricane
They say I'm stuck in a loop of my fast lane
But overlooking my own life I feel no pain
I don't regret a moment, cause regret is vain...

The circus, my virtues, they're vicious, The Stage
Them chains and them ropes, the prison, The Cage
The pain, the tears, struggle The Page
The friends and them foes, the mask, Back to the stage...

They say a Hurricane's what brings you back
But will it bring me the smile I lack?
And if the wind of change is what I need
Then I won't wait for it, I'll take the lead!

And breathe... no matter what you do, just breathe...
Inhale this morning breeze
They say the moment should be seized
Just carpe diem, just breathe...


[cyb]
12.06.2008
02:13
17.06.2008
21:51