for those brief moments, for the moments of speed, determination, effort and competition with no one else but yourself you surprisingly start to notice that you are free. no, you have been free all your life, that's true, but then again you almost never notice it right? you invent all sorts of things like ropes and chains to bind yourself. your mind can be very creative in this.
all of a sudden you notice that the only thing that you are thinking of is THIS. the road. the speed. the adrenaline rush is so intense that it takes you, overflows your heart and takes your breath away. all you are feeling right now is THIS. the sense of flight, the feeling of a little control in this uncontrollable world. at that time YOU control YOUR world. with your own hands and feet. with your mind, with your eyes.
this is a mixture of joy, pain, fear and accomplishment. forget the rest. the road. you see the flat and dotted yellow line in between your wheels? that's your path. follow it! take it! MAKE IT! taste it.
150. what a magical number. but can you go a little bit faster? of course you can. floor it! 160... that's the limit.
-no... there is no limit! you are the one to set the limits...
-brake!!! brake for god sake! BRAKE!
heavy braking. another tight corner. time to floor it again...
-go! yes! a little faster! you can! clock? forget the clock! time does not matter now. speed does. opponents? you have no opponents but you! all of you. every single one of you. FASTER!
-what are you escaping? what are you running from? WHAT are you running from?
-he's not running FROM. maybe he's running TOWARDS.
-i m not running. i m LIVING now. I am...
-i m afraid! i m so scared! BRAKE!! please brake!
...another corner. almost lost it... time to slam on the gas pedal again. then again we do it all the time. we lose, we fall. then we get up again and carry on. it was said strength is not to evade the storm. the strength is to go through it and carry on.
-floor it! there is no limit.
...set the limit, then break it. then set another one. you are the limit. you see that flat yellow line between them wheels? that's the path you don't need to take. the right path is not on that line. make up your own path and take it. break the rules, set the rules, then break them again and live with it. just breathe... breathe...
...The winner is not the one accelerating fast, but the one hitting the brakes last...
1: -brake!!! for god sake, BRAKE!!!
2: -floor it!
3: -what are you running from?
4: -what are you running towards?
5: -there are no limits!
6: -you are free!
7: -this is fun!
8: -choose the right path!
9: -make you own path!
10: -forget the pain. there is no pain better than this one. enjoy it!
11: -you have to make it! you have to prove you can!
12: -there is no avoiding war. the only way to get smarter is rebel against the greatest enemy!
#13:
-I am the Winner. no need to prove anything. no need to hurry and no need to brake. I will make it. I set the limits. I choose the path. I have chosen. I have made it. no need to run towards as well as escape. no need to evade the war and rebel any more. I am here. me and you. feel me. breathe me. inhale me. follow me. take the lead. do anything that takes your breath away. with me. I AM HERE. now it's time to brake and pull over. the race is over for now. get ready for another one.
...looking at the glow on the brakes of my car i realized how close it was. nearly lost it. bu then again we do it all the time through our lives don't we? we walk on the edge. i just felt it closer then every day. and for those brief moments of speed, determination, effort and competition with no one but myself i felt free...
[cyb]
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